How are we coping..

I can't lie, I am sad. An opressive sadness, it envelopes me and suffocates me. I cleaned out the fridge downstairs. I saw things that AUnty had bought carefully and thoughtfully. I looked into the room where her spirit left her.. and I was sadenned by its emptiness. The emptiness is deafening. I miss her smile, her cursing the sound of her walker, her tenacity. WHo would have thought.
At the store today I shopped with the deliberation she taught me. She would have fussed at ne though, I forgot my shopping list. SHe always had a shoping list which she meticulously followed. I wrote one too but most of the time it never made it into the store. THat used to aggravate her... in an amusing way. She had a way of watching an observing people behaviors... she noted that I never left the house without having to run back upstairs .. I always forgot something.. She always complained that I was always changing the baby's clothes.... and that everytime the baby cried I said the same thing "shes tired".
Anyway thats where I am today sad and remembering.
over and out.